GREY

" Am i bad Su?"...he asked me....how do i explain to him that there cant be any bad or good....any correct or incorrect......any hero or villian. The producer had limited funds...so he thot of using the same character to play both the roles .......we are all grey characters!!

I am selfish .....i agree ....i cant be a GOD afterall...y wont i cry when i feel hurt ....y wont i scream out of frustration???..y wud i be expected to always understand???....i kno being good is more acceptable but rather than giving my self /heart/soul pain....y cant i let others feel the pain who have forced me in that situation. Y cant I be a grey character???

But!! wat if i still feel for the person who has hurt me..esp after he has hurt badly...y do/would feel bad just because he is low...Y do i feel like taking away his pain.....y do i feel like been the comfort cushion for him???.........Now i know Y i cant be a grey character !!!

Feelings

That one thing in this world...which makes us laugh & cry.....makes us feel jealous...n angry.....gives us reasons to look forward to life. Have we ever wondered y do we give this so much importance?? when we know...it might give us good returns but with a heavy price.

I hate saying this to me, but i am actually a very emotional person. The other day a friend asked given to choose in bet 2 hats which one would i go for- Practical / Emotional. I smiled.....is it a question to ask!!! I M AN EMOTIONAL PERSON ....now i was curious y was i asked this question when i truely, completely feel i am so very much emotional.....(pheww already tired of using this word so many times!!!) .....thats it oozes from all possible aspects of my personality

Now comes the interesting twist....people ( all), friends ( who are not that close/ dnt know me well) think i am a very practical lady. A woman who knows what she wants in her life, career & have even taken her personal life decisions very practically.

GOD !!! how dearly i wished i did..i could...i would.......

Till date..i have loved , hated, loathed, liked, got livid so passionately .......these are most dear emotions.

Would SUKANYA be SUKANYA without them?? I wonder would my near n dear ones not miss the "me" without them???....wont i stop being myself without them????

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I sometimes wonder y have i created this blog.. i can no way be extremely honest and open about what i write...i will always have to be conscious of what i am writing (since it shouldn't give away much of me)....

May one reason can b that its the in thingy now....from a nobody (read me )to a somebody (read AB or Ghazini Khan) are all doing it. 

A blog can be a way to publicity stunt for the biggies but what is it for me???....

The traditional diary was a much better option....pour your heart out but just make sure its kept safely away from Mom's hands :P

I realised today there are so many things in my life which i have never done... but Inshallah will soon ....

Today was my day of confusions and questions ......

Arrggggggggggghhhhhhhh

Currently in pain...bad knee pain (ya ya i know its one of the signs that m getting old)....Gosh if last few months my weight constantly reminded me of being on the other side of the scale ...now its the nagging pain. 

Dance for life

These days m in a "dance 4 life" mode,n am very happy for myself for being in this mode. A pat on the back for me .

It was 9 yrs back that i last touched my "ghungrus"....n i feel alive today once again. Once again i got a chance to be myself n yes another feather  to my " Rediscovery" :) 

Oddisi....n Jazz....quite an indowestern cocktail flowing in my life. Yes it was extremely difficult to once again put my body in the mode....i felt the resistance from each and every inch of my physical existence.....but mind and soul knew this is the only chance. This time i wont let time, studies, work, family ....anything to come in between. 

We sometimes become so busy chasing the other goals of life that we don't realise what we leave behind is an important part of what we are. 

Well without getting philoshopical let me share my list " Things to Do" 

• Jazz
• Odissi
• Swimming

Today's class report- i failed miserably in matching steps with the rest of the class many a times....realised that i had in total learned 5 dance pieces but as on today my dancing experience is only on papers kind......

Ya Jazz was a better experience .....had the 1st class last Sunday.....had a blast ....grooving music full on and the excited students, together made a great combo. 

Now gotta go ....have a lot of household boring chores to take care of......

Dasvidaniya n Keep Dancing 

 

Welcome To Me

A warm heylo to me ...yes m bit curious about this new thing i m getting into. 

I guess i first need to introdue myself . 25 & working, m a bengali whose now settled far away from home. My life is 5 days office and 2 days of being just me and myself. Havent done much great in my life yet at times feel very happy about me and at times frustrated. Hmmmm negetives publicity ...thats wat i m doing now i should be giving you a bright picture atleast in the intro !! well m little bit of wacky in the way i do things . :) 

Ahh the name .... Wanted to write a book (few people think i write well.....ahhh) m here is my attempt to discover a writer in me.....thus REDISCOVERY. I needed an platform to write, express, share, communicate. 

Hobbies are painting, dancing and reading infact these days m indulging in more of the 3rd hobby  & the rest two are not getting their share of attention. Love to read books, d recent one which i finished is " the Zoya effect"..must say had a great time reading ...nice &  simply written.  

More to come in the upcoming days.....