GREY

" Am i bad Su?"...he asked me....how do i explain to him that there cant be any bad or good....any correct or incorrect......any hero or villian. The producer had limited funds...so he thot of using the same character to play both the roles .......we are all grey characters!!

I am selfish .....i agree ....i cant be a GOD afterall...y wont i cry when i feel hurt ....y wont i scream out of frustration???..y wud i be expected to always understand???....i kno being good is more acceptable but rather than giving my self /heart/soul pain....y cant i let others feel the pain who have forced me in that situation. Y cant I be a grey character???

But!! wat if i still feel for the person who has hurt me..esp after he has hurt badly...y do/would feel bad just because he is low...Y do i feel like taking away his pain.....y do i feel like been the comfort cushion for him???.........Now i know Y i cant be a grey character !!!

Feelings

That one thing in this world...which makes us laugh & cry.....makes us feel jealous...n angry.....gives us reasons to look forward to life. Have we ever wondered y do we give this so much importance?? when we know...it might give us good returns but with a heavy price.

I hate saying this to me, but i am actually a very emotional person. The other day a friend asked given to choose in bet 2 hats which one would i go for- Practical / Emotional. I smiled.....is it a question to ask!!! I M AN EMOTIONAL PERSON ....now i was curious y was i asked this question when i truely, completely feel i am so very much emotional.....(pheww already tired of using this word so many times!!!) .....thats it oozes from all possible aspects of my personality

Now comes the interesting twist....people ( all), friends ( who are not that close/ dnt know me well) think i am a very practical lady. A woman who knows what she wants in her life, career & have even taken her personal life decisions very practically.

GOD !!! how dearly i wished i did..i could...i would.......

Till date..i have loved , hated, loathed, liked, got livid so passionately .......these are most dear emotions.

Would SUKANYA be SUKANYA without them?? I wonder would my near n dear ones not miss the "me" without them???....wont i stop being myself without them????